Tuesday, June 17, 2008

He's my Son, All 3 of them..

Today, I walked at lunch and watched a group of young Military walking.. they look so young.
I watched and thought of my own 3 sons.. One's home now, with the battle scars he'll always carry, the other two are somewhere in Iraq. One is due home from his 2nd tour anyday..
The other is there for at least a few more months..
As any Mom I'd give myself to have them here home and safe.
I walk a fine line with my thoughts and actions of Iraq.. I'm proud of my Sons for what they believe and gladly do for their country and yet I want to get angry that they are there.. I watch no news on Iraq.. I can't... every story that says we've lost some Military scares me.. it's too close to home.

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Secret Heart

How do you keep moving and talking and enjoying life?
I manage and even have kept dating others.
Among the wishes one has of life. There are many you will never see.
So my secret is safe..

Sunday, June 1, 2008

What's love go to do with it?

Him :Hi Cuteness

Me: Hi, come to play?

Him: I'm not good with no payoff or commitment B4 play


Me: You know where I stand


Him : "Yeah, you stand on sex with a 30 year contract..I'm having fun with an option for casual protected sex from time to time"


Me..Why does this scare you?



Him "It doesn't scare me. It's an illusion. What's ur record?

I'm to old to hold out any longer for forever.
Right now is all we have."

Me: Marry Me..

Do I think he'll answer? No.. it's been over 3 hours now and nothing.
I have no idea what made me write it, Maybe kind of a"prove me wrong thing.."
So my friend says "What if he says Yes"
I hadn't thought that far.. After all he is now explicit in what he wants. And that is not forever.
So do I think he'll answer positive ? No.. He won't it's a game and I am tired of games..because some friendships can not cross lines.. I need for him to know that..